PreSuMpTuouS GurL

never let u down..

2006-05-25T17:05:00.000+03:00

sigh having a bf is such a pain in d ass but yet not having one is far more worse....i think human can never be satisfied...wait mayb am d only human dat can never be satisfied!damn...oh who cares neway..back 2 my bf....he's cute,adorable,caring n romantic...all dat i've wanted....but y dis shits happen?coz of his fucking attitude which annoys me...lyk put his fwens first rather den me!urgh!waassup guys with fwens man..if u cant survive w/o ur fwens den go n marry dem...y need a gf?fukers...sigh..my problem is i love my bf n now i dunno wtf am crappin bout..get better off nw..=p ciaou..

In LoVe~~~

2006-04-08T06:12:00.000+03:00

LOVE....i didn even noe wut da hell dat word really means till i was 15,i mean duh of cos i knew da meaning of luv between me n my family , friends...but i noe we describe LOVE diffly wif diff ppl...i got my 1st bf when i was 15,n from there it keep going on n on....and when i was 17 i stop....stop searching 4 him...tired of having a broken heart ....tired of crying...n as fiza said...tired of being a his DoLL...

i never thought the word LOVE will appear on my mind again.....yes i admit sumtimes i do feel lonely,insecure n fragile....but sumhow i told myself,i can do everything on my own..n i dun need any1else 2 help me.....but of cos dat dosent work...the fact where a gurl needs a boy...oh wait ..a BOY needs a GURL....is indeed undeniable....im human 2 n i need 2 b love,2 have sum1 besides me,n wipe away my tears...whenever my heaert is broken.....i've dated few guys....yes they r nice,gentlemans,cute...but none of them is pure...becouse whenever am with them i always feel insecure...

ok enuf of babling,get to the bottom line...IM IN LOVE....n dis time,its pure...true...and i hope...it'll last forever...i never tot i wud luv sum1 sooo much,dat ithas occured to my mind once.....if he died today,i wont b alive 2mrw,bcoz now he is part of me....part of my LiFE....part of my story...n when we inhale da last breath....he will b part of my history...

Whats going on???

2006-03-28T18:55:00.000+02:00

yes its been sooooooooooo long ..dats coz i've been bz wif lectures n assignments..n boys...n friends...n n n..no more..huh..
anyway Life is ok so far...a lot of things going on but think i can handle it..last week was a very "not fun week" 4 me...didn do much..just go 2 lectures n make new fwens n go back home...talking bout new fwens i have lots of new fwens now n mostly guys...n now i got lots of guys admirin' me..but none i like...yes i do go out out wif them n but as a fwen n i told 'em i i really feel..heart broken?their problem...not me...

nw dat i ahve lots of new fwens ..my time is limited 4 everything even for my close fwens..not dat i ditch 'em when i got new fwens..its just my new fwens r also my classmates which means we'r studyin' 2gether..jessie.me n rina wasnt as close as last time..wasnt fun as last time...didn talk much as last time...now we always have issues or problems with eachother...i dunno when da fuck it begans..but if sum1 didn do sumthing..da friendship will ends...n i dun want dat 2 happen..not anytime soon..not ever....

dear fwens,
i cant tell how fast da time went thru us,
and i cant believe how it has changed each of us,
once i said we'll forever remain the same...
but look at us ,wut we've became....

guess i was wrong , that nothing can go wrong...
mayb i thought our bond is really strong..
my mistake..i just said wut i feels..
never thought whats the future will be...

becouse theres only us,in my dream,
happy together,as wut we should be..
deny the truth as it always hurts,
coz its only a dream for me to pampered...

As i awake,to the real world,
no one there as pure as pearl,
then i realised,its only a dream,
which can happen in only fantasy..
but what i am facing is the reality....

wut a day.....

2006-03-15T09:49:00.000+02:00

yesterday i had legal studies class which is damn boring but fun...i dunno y da hell i said it was pretty fun ,but yeah in dat boring moment der was sum "fun" moment 4 me...anyway,i was late!as usual...by da time i walked in everybody keep looking at me prob wonderin where dis idiot gurl gonna sit as da front rows were full...when i turned my head 2 da right side,i saw dis blank chair...but i dun have da guts 2 sit der coz dis bloody hell cute guy sittin rite next 2 it!i think he's d cutest guy in dat class...no...he's d ONLY cute guy in dat class~!!!!*smile*~~~~~~~~~~~~....

anyway!i went 2 da back row so i can actually look at him frm da back =p while listenin 2 da most boring lecture ever......during da 5 mins break which i extended it 2 15 mins ,n yup i was late again,=p..i saw him standin' outsite da glass door,n while am walkin' am wonderin wether i shud go out n talk 2 him ...den i decided 2 go out n talk 2 him n on da way der...i saw him smilin' at me n straight away i turned rite to the toilet =p

*shy*shiishh....oh well,yesterday was a great day ..not coz of dat cute guy but bcoz lots of guys(did i mentioned all of 'em r cute)smilin' at me...i think i had a gud hair day yesterday...sum of 'em says hi but...none of 'em dare 2 ask 4 my number!!urgghh!pussy!

am tryin 2 get over sy but he's in my mind 24/7 which is very irritating!!!!!!!!!n i noe sumhow i will c him sumwhere as perth isnt sooo big at all!uurrghhhhhhhhh!

3 weeks of heLL...

2006-03-12T16:37:00.000+02:00

i got a car...n suppose dat means YAY!!!!!!!!!!coz its easy 4 me 2 muv ard..NO!da 1st week i drove dat car i got a parking fine!2nd week i got another fine....3rd week my car got CLAM!i think i broke da record!it not me!its da car!i've been driving 4 years in KL n i never get a single fine!hahahha..f***k suei car!!its not my fault...da 3rd fine wasnt even my fault..my car got clam coz me fwen who drove dat car b4 didn pay her fine n i ave 2 pay 4 her nw!aarrghhhh!

da 1st week of classes was great...but i got 2 assignments due next week...n my accounting lecturer muv me 2 another class which!i knew he didn lyk me da moment i walked in his class..stupid lecturer!guess it wasnt so great nemore...

last friday we went 2 dis bhangra nite in metro..it ws hell fun till sy turned up!we had an arguement n he said am taking it too fast!i ws lyk heLLo!i called u only if am in uni coz i knew he got same timetable as me!urgghhh..n he keep giving excuses bout his past n bla bla bla bla...puh.bullshit..if dats wut he wants ..fine..no more calls frm me...

crack!

2006-03-05T16:11:00.000+02:00

last nite we had a hse warming in jessie's new apartment n few glasses were broken..thx 2 nick!hahhaha...aftr dat we were gettin' ready 2 go 2 metro n in dat get ready 2 get in2 da car process,sum shit happened n it pissed da hell out of me...
sum shit happened n there was a tension sitiuation in da car....4 those who really knew me..they knew am not da kind of person who shouted or raise my voice 2 ppl when am angry....so 2 actually explained da killer silence in da car,i told jessie exactly wut i shud've told her long time ago....2 bad i think i said it in a very wrong time...aftr i said wut i needed to..i heard she cried in da back seat n 2 know dat my i made my bestfwen cried is jst da worst feeling ever!i was fuckin'hurt n i keep saying 2 myself if i screwed dis friendhip i wont 4give myself 4 it...
dat was da 1st time i saw jessie gave me da most hatred looks ever since we've bcame fwens....2 just saw dat expression it was like hell falling 2 my shoulder ...it hurts 2 noe ur bestfwen hates u........
rina kindda works things out n we still going 2 metro...n pretends nuhting happened..but still i can feel da tension between us..yes we did laughed n dance 2gether lyk b4...but i jst knew dat very moment...our friendship has crack.......

2 jessie...i just want u 2 noe dat u r lyk a sister 2 me...yes i do had few bestfwens which i called sisters b4 but i found out dat they never actually gif a damn bout me...even with all da screwed history i've been thru..i still muv on n hoping one day i wud find a true bestfwen who i always can caount on...n den i found u......n den i realized ur da only one who treat me as a fwen n listens 2 my troubles...last time i always pray 2 GOD 2 gif me a nice fwen 2 accompany me along my journey....n now i pray 2 GOD if i die,plz take care of my bestfwens since am no more der with her.....jessie,i cn say a million times sorry but i noe it dosent mean anything without a forgiveness frm u......

soon everybody will b bz....

2006-03-03T19:14:00.000+02:00

today i heleped jessie muving out 2 her apartment n believe it or not it took 3 CARS 2 fit all of her stuff!!gosh...her clothes took da most space!seriously jessie u need 2 stop shopping!n dis goes 4 u 2 rina!
da whole day i was waiting 4 my ph 2 ring .. a call frm sum1 who i've been waitin' 4 2 call me since morning...but it didnt!!!!!!!!AM NOT HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!hahhaha..seriously u guys shud watch "just friends"....anyway back 2 da story,n yea i keep waiting n waiting till i took out my ph frm jessies bag n guess wut?da moment i took it wut,it rang!!!!!yeaa!!!we r sooo meant 2 b 2gether..heheheheh*smile*
i had fun 2day hangin out with my fwens...but we miss della....sigh..cum back u bitch!we miss u!

neway my classes starts on monday n i cant wait!life's been boring n dull n nuthing without classes!n plus aftr everythin' settled,am gonna find job 2 fill up my "nuthing 2 do much" days...okeyyyyyyyyy am so hell tired rite nw!need a nice long sleep!tata!!!!!nite!!ASSALAMMUALAIKUM!

u guys r da best!

2006-02-28T08:16:00.000+02:00

yesterday was my b'day n my bestfwens jesss rina phy n steph brought me 2 dis nice italian restraunt...n when they brought out da cake da whole ppl in dat restraunt were singin' birsthday song 4 me...sooooooooooo sweeettt...dat was da best birthday ever!i luv u guys sooooo much!muax!oh yea n guess wut dey gif me 4 present?guess bag!!cool shit ay!hahahhaah...

even in dat happiness,we all miss della so muh n always wish she cud b der with us..

WuT dO i ReaLLy WanT???

2006-02-26T20:17:00.000+02:00

last nite i had dner with few friends 4 my birthday in advance as nobody will turn up if i do it on sunday or monday...yesterday morning wasnt a gud start 4 me...i called my mom n she's nt well as she saw her grandchildrens walking wout frm our hse with ma sis in law...i ws sad n worried as am da 1 who always take care of her if she fell sick..aftr dner we went 2 metro..n i ended up my nite pretty gud...let jst says sy has brighten my day yesterday...sy n me knew eachother 4 quite a sumtimes..n we bcame closer nw....i dunno wut i want frm him...either luv or jst normal friendship?but sumwhere deep inside my heart i knew dat we cn never b just fwens...in fact am confuse wut i want rite nw....yes aftr being single 4 long time i mite 4get wuts da meanin of luv...but i do noe one thing....i am human 2 n yes i do want 2 b luv...............

back in perth

2006-02-23T06:48:00.000+02:00

the trip was ok...but as usual plane food always sux!when da plane was bout 2 landed,it shakes few times,which make me wonder..."gosh..r we gonna crash?!"but thank GOD we landed safely......julie fetched me frm d airport,n few hours later,i went 2 meet up with my 2 bestfwens jess n rina...glad 2 see them again.....i am sad as am leaving my parents n my family again...n i feel lyk cryin' when am thinkin' bout my parents...dat was da first time i saw my dad cried..

neway,college started in 1st march,n i hope my classes wont b every single day coz i plan 2 find a job 2 top up my petrol...yup!i got a car!!at last!but cum 2 think bout it...i miss my bus life..hheehehehehe...

oh yea..i lost my hp,motorola v3,believe it or not i got it back...dun ask how...

aLhAmduLLiLLaH!

2006-02-16T12:24:00.000+02:00

i jst came back frm hospital as my grand just had an operation..alhamdullillah da 5 hrs operation was a success!but my grand still in hospital..but neway everyhings fine now...i msg my aunt(who didn even contact my famly 4 months)bout dis..n suprisingly she turned up at da hospital...well she better do coz if she didn ,i will hang a CRUEL WOMEN sign on her face!
bla bla bla..tick tock...dam dum n dats it..am going back 2 perth again..so fast..i didn even realized hw fast da time passes by....sigh.....ok..chow

he's gone......n so does my alarm...

2006-01-26T09:06:00.000+02:00

yesterday we went 2 KLIA 2 say gudbye 2 our bestbuddy israk...yup..he went 2 sydney leaving his bitches here in KL....sigh...miss him heaps ...oh yea sorry is coz i left ur present..ur belt ..dun worry am gonna post it 2 u..n ur cap..hmm..am wearing it now=p..cant help it..its so cool...2 bad i left it..but dun worry i'll but u new one..now ders nobody 2 wake me up...usually israk's call will wake me up..now no more...no more advices frm him bout my prob with guys and life.....solution........find a new best fwen=p but dun worry is..ur still my best bitch ever!hahhaha...am baking choc cake wif fiza now...later going 2 damansara 2 ave dner in her hse....ok am out..fiza's cuming.......eeekkkk..interrupted...eeekkk

ma bitches!

2006-01-13T11:18:00.000+02:00

my bithces n i love 'em soooooo much!

hello 2006...n gudbye 2005..

2006-01-04T21:54:00.000+02:00

2006 is definetly a new begining for me...i ave so much resolutions for 2006 in my mind but mayb i shud start one by one...ok..am gonna study really hard(GOD plz help me in dat!!)less shopping(am broke anyway)get a bf(am not sure bout dat..shud i?)be a better person(wut am i saying!am gud enuf already)ditch my bad habit(israk,if u write bout my "bad habit" in ur blog am gonna kill u)lose weight(dats been in my list since forever!)hmmm wut else...oh yea..n save money..dats all..i hope i achieved all of dis b4 2007!2005 was a lot of fun!!new fwens,new experience...n am not gonna 4get all da memories i've been thru with my fwens in perth..u guys r da best!da most dat r really precious 2 me which i got in 2005 r jessie,rina n della...my new mates!i luv u guys so much!n jess,i hate u..msg me bitch!am bored here in kl..

anyway..its time 2 say gudbye 2 2005.."its hard 2 say its time 2 say..gudbye..gudbye~"(a song called photograph)hehehhehe...i can't wait 2 go back 2 perth...miss dat place lyk hell..of cos i enjoy stayin' in KL ..i mean since i came bck i had so much fun n plus i got lots of new fwens...but i think its time 4 me 2 go bck..a place where i belong............well actually dats not where i belong..i jst luv 2 say it=phehehe..its lyk goes with rythm....4get it!i dun think u guys wud understand wut am trying say ,so anyway...i mite go 2 curtin or alexander college...i dun care which as long as i can go murdoch uni nxt year..ok its 4 sumthin a.m n am going 2 sleep...gud nite 2006!!!!!!

5 4 3 2 1.....HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

2005-12-30T17:54:00.000+02:00

HO HO HO JST OVER N NOW ITS NEW YEAR!!!2mrw me rieni fiza n israk gonna celebrate new year in bukit bintang!!n i hope its gonna b hell fun!i met rina 2day n believe it or not she got possesed by sum "thing" last nite!!am not dat suprised actually as rina always talks bout hw she can actually "communicate" with dis "things"...scary huh?well i called dat freaky...neway she's ok now..i think..well..she started shopping already so yea..confirmed dat she's normal..coz we all noe dat "thing" dun lyk 2 shop..obviously...oh yea..israk got accepted in taylors so he is going 2 sydney..gud luck with dat!!as 4 me i still dunno wuts next 4 me....but most probbaly i'll b back 2 perth la...bf?not 4 now...i think having so much fwens is so much better n having a bf n knowing dat u can't go out with any1 else..sux?i noe....neway hapy new year 2 all of u n enjoy ur self 2 da max!fresh start n new begining...............

its 2.35am

2005-12-27T20:32:00.000+02:00

its 2.35 am n am still writting sum shit ..jst can't sleep...israk was rite..i better write more since i won't b updated my blog 4 few weeks frm now..i guess...neway..2mrw am going 2 idp since i got an offer letter frm curtin,but am gonna apply for alexander neway..since my fwen said its much more cheaper n better!!going out with fiza,is,mayb rieni n mayb meeting rina in KL...oh shit!i promise kak pnud meet her as well!n endang!damn..oh well i ave da whole day...israk u better wake up 2mrw!we gonna discuss bout our new year dner..dunno where 2 go...mayb starhill but its hell expensive!its all dpends on our budget..i wanna work..but as wut?i mean i only ave a month left b i go back perth..but da thing is i need $$$$$!
oh well am jst gonna ask my dad 4 extra pocket money den...=p i noe..very very irresponnsible...but wut cn i do?bsides isn't dat wut we suppose 2 do in family?2 GIVE N TAKE?my dad do da give part n me da take part..heheheheh..cum on..sharing is caring ok...=p my bro shafiq went 2 summer camp...n he only left 4 a day n my mum already started saying hw much she misses him....jealous!!neway am off..ave 2 wake up early 2mrw..as if i will=p chau!!!!!

mY HeArT gOeS HMmMmhmmMm~

2005-12-27T19:54:00.000+02:00

its been wut..2 3 weeks since i last updated my blog?sumtimes i feel having a blog is such a waste of time!!but again dis is da place 2 express my feelings,my thoughts...yup..dats true..i hav no1 2 turn 2 whenever ders a need 4 me 2 express my feelings...sad i noe but true...dat is shamin...i ave everything...fwens,money(well,mayb not always),luving parents,caring brothers,nice houses,car(i dun really lyk dis car but at least it still can muv),nice cousins,cute nieces which always make me smile etc...but still i feel sumthing is still missing frm my life....sumthing dat i noe is really important 4 me find...sigh..
i can't say am having a sad life coz i laugh every single day....so everybody can laugh with me..but sumtimes i asked myself...do i forced myself 2 laugh?so i can make others happy?can't really answeer dat..i can usually answer when sum1 questioned me,but not when am questioning myself....only i noe wuts inside me,behind my happy voice n bhind my smiles....
i luv seeing other ppl smiles..it jst make me happy..da feeling inside me is jst so wonderfull till it can't b dscribe by words..n dats when my heart goes hmmmmm hmmmmm hmmmm~ .......it sings even w/o sounds....

ThE DaMaGe HaS BeEn DoNe!

2005-12-19T20:36:00.000+02:00

penang was hell fun n i even went fishing n had a nice bbq in dis wonderful island ..but i guess its nt dat wondefull aftr i got stung by jellyfish~damn pain!!!!kids,stay away frm jellyfish!!neway my holiday was all gud till i got my final exam reult..its not dat bad but bad enuf 2 noe dat i ave take diploma nxt year!yes i am very very very dissapointed n only GOD noes how dissapointed i am...as well as my mum..but wut more can she say...da damage has been done...n its totally sux coz it ruined my holiday mood...i noe i didn do my very best n i promise dis year i'll do much more better n not only dat..am gonna b one of da top student in my college!wut a dream huh?i noe but hey ders no harm dream...but make sure u turn it 2 reality...

rite nw i feel lyk going back perth as soon as possible ...its not dat i dun lyk it ere or i wanted party in perth..no!its just dat i cudn stand facing my parents n seeing their faces every single day n having dis guilty feeling inside me coz i broke their dreams.....i am very dissapointed n dpress by having dis feelings...but i noe dis guiltyness inside me will stay untill i achive wut i want!

sum ppl said i ave bad english but i dun care..i jst keep talking n i didn mine ppl correcting me...same goes 2 my education...am gonna keep going n never give up...i screwed once...n there will not b twice...

tick tock tick tock....

2005-12-07T21:37:00.000+02:00

KL is fun.....but sumhow i miss perth..i dunno..sigh...my result gonna b online on 14th of dec n here i am sitting here thingkin' bout it..wut if i didn pass?oh well now i can't b bother...am jst gonna wait 4 my result n c hw things goes..these few days i've been feeling so sad...i didn even noe y,but i noe sumthing is wrong with my heart..coz it hurts...

ok..drop da gloomy sad shit story of mine...2day is my bro's b'day..HAPPY B'DAY SHAFIQ!!!!I LUV U SOOOOO MUCH BRO!da food were fantastic,i got 2 meet my family n stuff..everything was wonderful!am going 2 penang on da 12th meet anjing aka rina n later on going jakarta meet ikan aka della...damn i miss those bitches...ok am off...my bed is caling me..tata...

"ThE ToNeLeSs LiFe"

2005-11-16T07:20:00.000+02:00

haLLo ppl!its 7.19 am....n i haven't get a nice Long SLeep yet...actuaLLy i had..hmm wait a minute..dats not called sleep ..dats a nap..i slept 4 few hours n i woke up 2 study...i noe dis dosen't sound lyk shamin but da guilty feeling which woke me up as i haven't study 4 my econs exam ..gud job shamin!sigh...i dunno wuts got in2 me...i jst have no mood 2 study at all...mayb coz am lookin' foward 2 go bacK 2 KL...or mayb coz am sIck of studyin'?!?urrrghhh..
shamin is tired n sumtimes she feels lyk run away a hundred miles ...away frm everything..jst her..n her dreams...one of my fantasy is 2 becum a succesfull business woman...n trust me am workin' on it..i had a fwen who gonna open a restraunt n i hope i can invest in dat restraunt...i noe its 2 early 4 me 2 do dis stuff but its never 2 early 4 me 2 experience sumthin' new...
My Life is unpredictable...as so do da world...

hmmmm

2005-11-13T08:05:00.000+02:00

its been 9 days since raya..but who cares am gonna celebrate raya once i go back 2 KL!n now i have 2 more paper left...econs which is on thursday n history on friday...aftr dat..................PARTY!PARTY!RAYA!RAYA!RAYA!n plus am goin' back 2 KL dis monday which i can't wait!been waitin' 4 da day 2 cum ages ago!i miss my famiLy so much..n finally....=)
aftr a year studyin' in perth....ders a LOT of things 2 look back which i can laugh bout it...me ..jessie.. rina ..della...who knows we ended up became close fwens ...aftr few months in skool.. we never even talk 2 each other..n now..hahahhah!we communicate w/o even sayin' a word..dats how close we r.....we hope our friendship will stay forever...

"its another day in high skool..
its another day of cruel...
n all those kids thinks dey'r so damn cool..
well they just look lyk fools!..

n den theres me n u...
we were bitchin' bout those fools..
we were standin' n laughin'...
to all da idiots in da skool...

why u can't u c...dat u nuthin'!
yeah u nobody 2 us...
jst leave...n go away..n never cum
back 2 our life!nanananananananana
dis is our song...hahaha..sorry jess,i changed it a bit..peace!

2005-11-07T21:15:00.000+02:00

GLooMMy rAya...

2005-11-02T01:20:00.000+02:00

2mrw is hari raya n i jst called ma parents...i tottally didn mean 2 cry wut so ever!but den when my dad started 2 sing hari raya song on da ph tears jst drop frm ma eyes...can't resist n can't hide wut i feel insinde..sigh...i still remember ...raya eve..at ma hse..all da guys in da hse jst makin' sure all da lights r gud n buy stuff lyk lemang etc...other den dat all dey do is lepakin' in frt of tv!all da gurls will b bz cookin'..as 4 me ..am not a gud cooker so my job is 2 put da kuih raya inside da jar n bake cakes..i will sleep ard 2am n my da last thing dat happen durin' raya eve is when my dad "tasted" all da rendang dat my mom cook..taste la sgt!hahaha...if ma mom not der he probaly finish half og it!
well..i really need those memories...nw i can't wait 2 go back...
i called my aunt n she cried...n i realized one thing actually...when am der near 'em..i nvr realized dat dey luv me so much...nw dat am far away frm "em....their tears explained hw much dey actuaLLY luv me!well sumtimes ppl dun really see..dey jst look...
neway i ave 2 chao now..ave 2 wake up early 2mrw...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA N MAAF ZAHIR BATIN!

Graduation....n da ball....

2005-10-30T11:53:00.000+02:00

Graduation was fantastic!compare 2 last year graduation..dis one was soooooooo much better!n of cos one of a garaduation tradition is a specch frm our principal...a looooonnnnnnnggggg speech!n of cos as our principal open his mouth,all of us will b bored 2 death!well mayb not everyone..but i noe i always did!=p,but yeserday was diff....i decided 2 actually listen 2 his speech....mayb coz i noe dis is my last chance 2 listen...as next year i'll b in uni insya'allah......he talked a LOT..n sum phrases frm him stick 2 my mind till now...n i hope it'll b der forever....
"dare to dream,dare to dream...but dun let the dream become only a fantasy..."
i dreaM a LOT!day n nite!when he quoted dat phrase....i started 2 think bout all my dreams which stay as my fantasy....n frm dat also i said 2 my self dat i will make each of my dream cum true.....

ok!so aftr da graduatiion ceremony....is our ball...in hyatt hotel...when i step out frm da cermony i saw limousines waitin' 4 their pasengers...n of cos da passengers was us!hahaha..it was hell fun..all of us were so excited n happy...on da way 2 da ball we stop at king's park for a photo session....photo session huh?/????heheheheh..as we reached ...da ballroom was waitin' 4 us 2 rox!it was so beautiful..n candles..da table setting...but da tradition is exactly da same as sri inai's ball..aftr dner,den we ave lil bit of presentation..n den its time 2 dance!dance till u drop!aftfr ball we had lil bit of aftr party...n dats d end of it...

Life is.."nuthin' much"

2005-10-24T17:15:00.000+02:00

Assalammualaikum,
2 weeks left n i dun think am ready 2 sit 4 my final exam..but hey i'll try my best...recently all i think is death...yes i admit dat i afraid of not waking up 4 2mrw..death has been da subject 4 dis week coz a lot of my fwens died.."mayb peace b upon 'em,amin." nt reaLLy my fwens but ...urrghh..cudn b bother 2 xplain...da point is all those ppl who died r da same age as me...n i bet dey dun expect Life ended dat fast.....yes...last time i wish i died b4 my parents do..as i cudn bear 2 c 'em...........................but den my best fwen said:n wut makes u think dey actuaLLy can bear ur death?...never occured 2 my mind...
neway..drop da subject...i dun want 2 spend da rest of my nite thinkin' bout death!shamin.."my mystery guy"suddenly stop sendin' me nice msgs..truth 2 b told i dun really care...i noe guys r LosERS...n so i received a msg frm him..."i finished my credit..dats y.."he3..fair enuf..last nite we had another loooonnnnnggggg chat...i asked him wud he stiLL chattin' wif me if am a bad gurL?(as we ave da same name i named him shamin2.......shamin:wut if am a bad gurL?r u u stiLL gonna chat wif me?" shamin2:"i will...coz i i want 2 change u 2 a gud gurL..." again..i dun trust guys at aLL...i mean dey r all sweet talkers...but bitter attitude!wuteva...am off...study!

2005-10-10T20:14:00.000+02:00

ramadhan been great..alahmdulillah ....tarawih as well..2day i did da math exam...subject dat i hate most..i dunno y..my brain jst stop functionnin' when i c numbers..=p...
Life??its been great..but i miss ma home lately....of cos its ramadhan..i miss da pic of bukak puasa wif ma famiLy.....n da pasar ramadhan...yummy!heheehhe...my Life is ....more...balance nw...cLoser 2 ALLAH make me feels so...caLm....happy as am in da rite track again...
make sum new fwens...n accordin' 2 sum1 everyday we'll meet 10 new ppl at least...is dat true??i dunno...wut if we stay at hme??hahaha..neway,back 2 da point...i did make few fwens...one of 'em i shud call him a "mysterious guy"...as i nver seen him b4..cz he didn let me...attitude huh?dats wut attracted me...his name is SHAMIN...freaky huh?way freaky!!!!i lyk talkin' 2 him as we ave a lot in common..n plus he's quite intresting 2...but no pic....hmm..............makes me keep thinkin' bout him......

waLking away.....

2005-10-04T17:39:00.000+03:00

Tommorrow is ma 1st paper 4 mock exam ...english...urgghhh i hate writting essays!i cn jst imagine am gonna sit der ....in da lecture room which only full of nuthin' but silence 4 3hours straight!oh yeah it sure gonna hurt ma Ass!!
sigh..nt only ma exam bt also da 1st day of ramadhan...it is sad havin' ramdhan w/0 ma parent....sad...really sad....when i came back 2 perth i feel empty again....i admit ...i am NUTHIN' w/o ma family....studies is a bit disaster...i told ma mom dat if i fail i dun wanna go back...n she replied exactly wut i think i need 2 hear...she said she regret scoldin' me b4 when i failed ma exam...cz aftrwards i pass n wuts da result?i left her..n came 2 perth...................only GOD noes hw i feel when i received dat msg...my mom might not b da greatest adviser,bt each of her words inspired me..n its been shaping ma Life...which turns out pretty gud!man i Luv her so much!
when i look back 2 da things am facing nw...i feel lyk jst walkin' away frm all da troubles in ma Life...bt i noe..it won't help..n so do cryin'......................

BaCk 2 pErTh....

2005-09-28T18:18:00.000+03:00

sigh....rite nw am standing in frt of d airport computer waiting 4 ma flite...n ma feet is hurting me!i mean heLLo!!s'pore is dat poor 2 provide chairs izit??!!??oh weLL d internet service is free anyay...
so here i am..i noe i noe i haven't write neything 4 ages....not ma fault,am having 2 much fun in KL!!!hahahaha!but nw of cos has go back 2 perth..where i belong....BORING!!i have 2 type really fast!!!as d internet service only allows 20 mins of use!urrgghhh!!
life in KL??well i didn go clubbin'....i didn hang out in bukit bintang(one of da most happnin' place in KL).....so wut did i do???spending ma tie wif ma family of cos!!!n its da bomb!i went sauna wif ma mom..ridin' roller coster wif ma bro,goin' shoppin' wif him,n plus goin' out rox n roLL wif fiza!!hehhehehe...am gonna miss ma hse so so much..especially ma bro's.....
damn it!d internet connection only left 5 mins!!!i wish jesse's here!dat bitch type really fast!super fast!she even won da fastest typin' game!ha3!ok ok..back 2 me...4 d 1st time i didn cry at d boardin' pass...i think am stronger...uwaaa....i can't get ma duit raya as am not goin' back 4 raya!!!!
ok ok..time 2 go....eat!!!hugry!!!

unexpectabLe Life....

2005-09-15T10:30:00.000+03:00

today am not feeling weLL...when i woke up,i can feel da heat inside my body...went 2 bathroom n i blew blood frm ma nice...am suppose 2 sit 4 three tests 2day..instead i went 2 da clinic n got a medicaL check up..n MC 4 2day...
i noe i noe..ma bLog is heLL bored..weLL ppl am nt in a moood of SmiLin'...DuN eVeN aVe A STReNgtH LaUgH....
SO...wuts goin' on in ma LiFe so far???weLL ma homestay went back 2 KL...n ma mom is so worried as am livin' alone in da hse...so one day i called ma mom n asked her 2 cum here 2 perth...next day.."ok min,insya'allah mama dtg on thursday ok".....later at nite..."min!papa suruh min balik KL la..dia x bagi mama dtg sana"sigh..yup...my dad asked me 2 go back n after gave a deep thinkin' bout it..i greed...i called ma mom.."mama,ok la min balik..tapi min ada exam tau".."bila?"..."5th october"...n here o got an unexpected answer frm ma mom.."oooooo..takpela..balik la 1st october"..n den am BLuR.....
i bought da ticket yesterday n am goin' back on monday...n i still can't believe am goin' back..i mean its aLL happened in a sudden????

am i hedonist???

2005-09-09T20:16:00.000+03:00

First wuts da meanin' of hedonist?well it means a person who belief dat pleasure is da most important thing in Life...nw da question is am I hedonist?ok..lets ave a review in ma Life so far...
-enjoy clubbin'
-enjoy music
-enjoy muvie
-enjoy games
-enjoy laughin'
-hate 2 study
-hate 2 b stress
-hate 2 let anger control me
hmm..dat lists has proven dat am more 2 "happy" type of person...n ejoyin' happiness so much..yes i do...but lets review again...
-sumtimes i enjoy being alone
-sumtimes i luv readin' books
-sumtimes am lookin' 4 problems
-i luv martial arts
-sumtimes i luv being quiet
so i enjoy sum darkness as well...hmm..does dis mean i have 2 character???????????but most ppl said am unpredictable???am i???sigh..i think i dunno much bout Me...guess am jst gonna let ppl STUDY bout me..lol...as if dey wiLL...

Ma LiFe Is JsT so pLaiN.....

2005-09-05T16:21:00.000+03:00

BELIEVE it or nt i stayed at home 4. da whole weekend!weLL i went out 2 visit ma previous homestay den went 2 buy ma bro stuff wif julie..bt den dosent count rite???coz i dun really"CHILL".....ALL I DID WAS SLACKIN' AT HOME N STUDY!yes ppl..we still talkin bout SHAMIN!hehehhee,i noe..sounds wrong..all ma fwens went 2 metro n all of dem called me...with an expactation 4 me 2 b in metro..."hey!where r u???" "umm..at home.." "wut!wut da fuck u doin' at home!?" "umm.studyin'??" "bullshit!" "yeah..got assignment 2 finish." "urrghh!LOSER!" TUT TUT TUT TUT....lol..yeah..summ ppl jst can't aceept da fact dat am actually started studyin'...heh~...
so..2 be specific..wut i actuaLLy did on weekends...on saturday aftr came back frm harbour town i stayed at home till ma homestay asked me wether i want 2 go 2 makan2 or not..considerin' am hugry n ders no food dat i lyk at hoome ..i said yeah..sure..aftr went back i can't really do ma sat nite routine..(if am nt goin' out)which is watchin' dvds...as ma homestay's cousin watchin' dis debate bout "IS BIBBLE TRUE WORD OF GOD??"i joined him n actaully its quite intresting ..as da muslim representative gave really damn gud speech till da christ. representative can't explain certain issues dat were discussed...den i slept...da nxt mornin' i ave tuition wif selfy @ 12pm..n wut time i woke up??12pm.ma homestay n her family gone 2 sumwhere far 4 a picnic left me alone in da hse..n den i heard a door bell....frm ma bed i walked 2 da door...n opened da da door.."selfy?"(in very blur voice n face)den i remembered bout da tuition.."OH MY GOD!i am so sorry..i jst woke up!"(DUH..lyk she cannot tell ...it was obvious as ma face n ma hair was all messy!)selfy wif da blur face.."u jst woke up???aiyaaa.shamin..its ok..u can take ur time..""nah..its ok..i'll brush ma teeth n wash ma face 1st k..den we'll start"hehehe yup..had tution 4 3 hours..aftr finished chat wiff ma mom..ended up cryin' since i miss her lyk hell...sigh.. so...dats all bout it..END...

University Western Of Australia!

2005-08-31T20:23:00.000+03:00

i REALLY REALLY wanna go 2 UWA!!!!i'll do wuteva it takes 2 go 2 dat uni n ppl plz pray 4 me!insya'ALLAH i can achieve wut i want...i jst wanna repay back ma beloved parent whom i luv so much n who have sacrifised A LOT 4 me!
yup ....dats ma dream n i wish it cums true...yesterday i went 2 dis excursion 2 dunno wuteva hills...it was fun..even its not adventurous as i tot...it took one freakin' hour 2 go der n it suppose 2 b boring in da bus but thanx 2 da havock gurLs..mua of cos..n 3 of ma amigos.(ikan =DELLA,anjing=rina,jess=kucing)dun blame me..they da 1 who wanted 2 b called lyk dat,,lol!we were singin' da whole way n on da way back all of us were sleepin'!tired of cos...aftr walkin in da bush n makin' a wagah wagah(aborigines language)knife..lol..

things goin' smoothly dis week...i didn go out as much as i did b4...mayb i've realised ma studies is much much more important den others..screw all da parties!screw clubbin'!screw internet!(n wut am doin' in frt of computer nw???)ok ppl..am off....
~am damn hungry as am fastin' 2day n haven't really eat!~

SELAMAT HARI MERDEKA 2 ALL MALAYSIAN!MALAYSIAN ROX!

2005-08-26T20:05:00.000+03:00

2day am da happy go lucky person...i dunno y..bt i jst wanna feel....happy!den on da way back home in da bus,i saw yunis(nt sure hw 2 spell her name)..she skool mate...nice gurl..when i saw her face..i saw nuthin' but sadness...deep in her eyes i can see dat she's lonely..n sad..darkness surrounded her till she didn even realise wuts ard her..(lyk me..lol..she didn notice i was in da bus)poor gurl..i approached her when we got down frm bus..i figured out a simple "hi" gonna make her smile...i dunno y but am really glad when i saw her smile...guess 2 make sum1 happy is really gud thing 2 do..n am glad i did..=)
i went 2 a socccer game..tot malaysian teams r sux..but perth..damn..much worst!lol!chill der 4 lyk an hour den went 2 base..had coke wif rina,jess,alex,russ..am not really in a mood of loud music n so i went home..russ sent me n he's so..gummy bear!!lol...cute!he's lyk dis one chubby litttle guy who talks n shout a lot!lol!i dun think am goin' out 2mrw ...(even its SATURDAY)mayb jst gonna slack at home ...i dunno...kita hanya merancang..ALLAH yg menentukan...

WTF...............is going on????

2005-08-22T16:46:00.000+03:00

am so tired 2day..feel sleepy 4 da whole day...n my body...arrrgghhhh!!!y???well last sat went 2 metro,came back ard 7 am...slept till 11 am at jess hse...den slept at 2 am..woke up on monday at 7.40 am...wut a LIFE!
sat nite was DA BOOM!had lotsa fun!thanx 2 ehem ehem both ehem ehem hot ehemeh ehem half ehem ehem naked ehme ehem guys ehem ehem..(coughin')met julie..she such a sweetie..(seriously babe i nvr tot u wud miss me dat much!luv u babe!)den met amy..juelz sis..wanna treat me a drink?/???umm later...lol....
when we were outsite metro..der was a fite..suddenly dis guy wif parang in his hand(nvr saw parang dat shinny b4)was chasing another guy..n dat bastard was runnin' 2ward us!!!!i jumped 2 da road n most of us was panic!n der i saw della happily standin' der facin' da guy wif da parang!i was lyk WTF!den da guy went back 2 his group...so we left..
when i woke up ..still in a state of blurness..i got a ph call frm selfy.."shamin,steph hse got burn!"i was lyk WTF ........is goin' on????poor steph..babe..i wud do anythin' dat cud help...she lost everythin' in jst a blink..sigh..shits happen ..bt dun worry,,,,u still ave us...

AAArrggGggGGgHHhHhhh!!!

2005-08-16T02:37:00.000+03:00

Am DaMn PIsS of da internet conection !!!2 b truth i already did type out dis very long nice blog of mine n suddenly its gone!!!such a waste!!sigh..ok..get over it shamin..
i noe i didn update ma blog 4 such a long time..(dat long meh)n ma 2 neneks(which r ma best fwens who i luv most-fiza n phy)so bising at ma tag board asked me 2 update ma blog..so here we goes...
am bz coz i was doin' ma assignment(which turned up nt so gud!arrgghhh!)n of cos bz of ma studies..hey ma exam is jst ard da corner ok n i ave lyk only a month 2 study 4 it..(d angel shamin:"FOCUS SHAMIN!FOCUS!" N da eviL shamin:"Cum On ..CHiLL...ders a month 2 go..reLax.go hang out @ base / metro laa")lol..well da voices really keep playin in ma heart..bt dun worry ppl!i will study hard(ok dat was lyk da 100 times i've said it)lol...of am serious!if nt am nt gonna get in2 uni..n if i can't...JENG JENG JENG...VOOO BOOOMMMM!!!TABBAAABBOO!!!(WW3 in ma hse in KL)lol..so study hard is really worth it..
goin' bakc on 21st insya'ALLAH..can't wait 2 c MA FAMILY!!!FIZA!!LISSA!!N ALL MA FWENSSS!!!!!MUACKS!MISS 'EM SO SO MUCH!!!
ok laa..sleepy la...nite...daaa,bubye,sayonara...tata...

sO???mY LiFe My WaY!

2005-08-10T16:18:00.001+03:00

am suppose 2 b doin' my assignment bt instead am slackin in front of ma comp... well nt my comp but hell...slackin...sigh...dun blame me ppl blame da internet...am actually tired n sick listenin' 2 ppl n keep tellin' me wut 2 do,i mean heLLo!!!my life my way ok!if u ave a prob wif dat den go 2 heLL!
anyway..Life's gud...Studies gud...but miss ma mom like heLL...n plus recently everybody keep askin' me "do u ave a bf??"ok ppl..d answr is NO!am still single n available...(nt a SLUT ok)..well,sum ppl say am fussy in choosin' bf..(am i???)well duh..of cos u ave 2 b carefull in choosin' one..he's gonna b ard u like almost 24/7..neway like few guys in skool(2 bad its nt luv)i dunno bout 'em..u noe guys nowdays..fuLL of egos!!!!never confess!!well,like i care neway....ok..dropit...
sigh..am waitin' ma mom 2 reply ma msg..bt on d other hand i think she's merajuk coz i didn msg her yesterday..YES PPL,I MSG MY MOM EVERY SINGLE DAY...believe it or not..wut can i say..i luv ma mom n ma mom luvs me!*smilin*..hehehhhehehe..ok laaa..cau...think gonna call ma mom nw..bubye!!!!!!!!!
-havin' sore throat,ate belacan even i knew am allergy 2 it,my bad..wut????its nice!-

state of recovery.....

2005-07-29T12:28:00.000+03:00

hey ppl!!!!!!!!well life has been quite gud recently...well ma homstay auntie changed a bit..buts i think dats gud enuf 4 me ..i mean she's bcumin' more friendly n started 2 talk to me...i mean not dat she didn talk 2 me at all...but rarely...n last nite we went dner n sum thai restraunt...a usual..i dunno wut 2 order n end up wif ....errr...well,da fud was ok la but nt dat nice....uurrrghhhh!am bad at choosim' food!
while we'r drivin' home suddenly sweet memories of ma family pop out...n dats made me smilin' all da way.......hehhehehehhehhe...at home i chat wif kak yana who's all da way in KL...SO NICE...ma hometown....neway..she expressed her feelin' n i was like..ok gurl i gif u a month 2 think bout MR.CHEF...n i'll cum back 2 u..coz 4 me am still thinkin\ dat myb tis jst a short term relationship..we'll see nxt month...MISS THEM SO MUCH!!!
am at jess hse nw slackin'...we might go 2 base 2nite..no..we\ll definetely goin'!!!!lol!nw am a bit serous of ma studies..i mean am givin\ ma full concentration in class..xcept 4 history..am so sorry mr.mackay....ur talkin' n da history videos makin' me zzZzZZzZZzZZzzZzZZZzZZz......BACK 2 DREAM LAND!lol!sorry again 2 ma best history lecturer...lol...ok enuf 4 nw..since jess started 2 bablin'!!!ok ppl!MIsS aLl Ma FwEnS iN kL eSpEcIaLlY PPrInCeSs....muAcKs!!!!!!

GrAdUaTiOn...HmMmMm...

2005-07-22T18:58:00.000+03:00

sigh...graduation is on oct n nxt week we ave 2 book da table..da thin' is am still thinkin' wether i wanna bring a partner or not????bring or nt 2 bring..bring or nt 2 bring....sigh.....70% of ma mind is nt 2 bring ..so i guess mayb not..but who knows...future is so unpredectible..i might fall in luv wif sum guy.....but da chance is NO!!!lol!wutever!i dun wanna think no more...lets jst go wif da flow...

oh,btw..am grounded..not like can't go out at all..its jst can't go out till late nite!damn!i mean am a late nite person..i dun go out durin' da day!da town waitin' 4 me at nite!hey..dun get me wrong ok!!am jst da type of person who like 2 hang out at nite havin' bubble tea!!!anyway..its nt dat boring stayin' at home..auntie's cousin uncle D came n am gainin' my 6 packs muscle on ma stomach coz i laughed 2 much!!i mean he's so funny!seriously..nver met such a funny guy...

bla bla bla...need 2 study hard...exam in few weeks time..blablabla..oh yeah!deLLa goin' L.A..n am gonna b fuckin' bored..bla bla bla...n fiza!!miss her like Hell..n i noe she must b party hard now...i think am gonna call her in few sec later...she's goin' 2 bali ..hate u!!!i think dats all la...acttually i ave sumthin' 2 say but i 4got...n dats da main thing..wutever..i'll wtitte another one when i remember.....ok...daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

PeRsAhAbAtaN.....

2005-07-13T22:52:00.000+03:00

Aku dan dia....
bertemu kayak di syurga...
tapi syurya di dunia...
yg penuh dgn kegusaran...
tapi tidak pernah kami hiraukan...
kerna kami punya dunia sendiri....
berlari..ketawa...gembira...
dan yg pahit kami tangisi...
dan kekosongan kami isi...
dgn perasaan yg hanya kami ketahui...

emosi ngak bisa mengatasi...
memori yg telah kami lalui..
kerna persahabatan ini...
melambangkan kami.....
kau adalah aku...
dan aku adalah kau........
semoga persahabatan ini...
kekal ........
apa yg ku kutahu....
selagi bernafas hayatku...
selagi berdegup jantungku....
kita kan terus bersama...
menjadi satu.......
~shamin~
p/s:i wrote dis poem 2 all of ma fwens dat i luv so so much....n i miss u guys...
-fiza(ma princess),rieni,nabila,alya,sakinah,anis(ma beloved cousin),jessie,julie(ma fav
coz),aiman n 2 all of ma fwens......-

HoPe u'LL b happy wif him...forever..n ever..

2005-07-10T07:43:00.000+03:00

i woke up a lil bit late..so i missed da trip..2 da park...ma bad..n nw am alone @ HOME...sigh..am nt feelin' dat well anyway...got bad sore throat..u noe how da feelin' when u wake up every single mornin' n u can't talk coz da pain in ur throat is jst killin' u?uuurrrrggghhhh!trust me!its da worst feelin' ever!
college will start next week...so i ave a week more..doing wut???dun ask,me my self dun ave a clue..mayb jst slackin' @ home..watchin' bunch of dvds...
everytime i woke up....am gonna feel like.."n now am so lonely-akon"hehheheh...exactly how i feel...yup..nobody..no family,no bf,fwens????bz wif their bf...wish i cud ave 1..anyway,my princess fiza already got new bf..aftr tired bein' a player she decided 2 b serious in relationship!yup!at last!hehhehehe...kiddin' babe!i saw his pic..wuts his name again?namezz,nomezz..sumthin'..oooh yeah NAIM!rite?hehhehe,he's alrite..u tau tak gambar dulu2 kan hitam putih..if u guys take pic..sebijik mcm tu..HahHahHAHhaHA...kiddin' again...ok babe ,hope ur happy wif him n if dat guy cheated on u or do anythin' dat hurt u..call me!am gonna sMaShEd,SqUeEzzZEeE,StRanGLe him tILL hE dIe..muaHAHAHhahahHAHA!!!!PEACE OUT!

nUtHiNg PeRsOnaL...

2005-07-07T17:53:00.000+03:00

I still remember da laughter dat i had wif ma family but i know it must b forgotten or else i can't go on...
yesterday i caht wif sis endang n suddenly there's so called "sis" pop out...simply said "its me la ur sis"...huh!no offense but since i when i have a sis again???look..everything which happened has been forgotten by mua!i bet u did 2 "sis"!i guess by stop msgin' n contactin' me explained everything!!!so y blame me?GAME OVER!i started da game n i ended it!dats just how my LIfE works..nuthin' personal...n endang ...am sorry...dis got nuthin' 2 do wif u...i mean we'r cool rite???hope we r...
Life is complicated...i think not!da ppl who made it complicated...life is simple if u noe how 2 handle it...sigh..fiza ..i guess i can only rely on u babe...ur my true fwen forever n ever...
~feel like singin'~
"i like 2 move it move it!u like 2 move it move it!dats how u..
MOVE IT!"
madagascar rox!!!

ma FaMiLy BaCK 2 KL..n nW aM sO LoNeLy..

2005-07-06T18:34:00.000+03:00

JST came back frm d airport..sent ma family...sigh..once again tears cumin' frm ma eyes...not only me..ma mom...my bro..my dad..n me ...still in pain.....when they walked away...for a sec..am lost...walkin' wif no direction...eyes wif no vision...surounded by soundless environment....

again am alone.....wish i cud rewind everything...but dats how LiFe works...history remain as memory.....it'll always there...only u cud see it ...thru ur imagination...4 days seems like 4 sec...but i guess it'll nvr b enuf...so better 2 let 'em go...more memories means more tears...more tears means more pain...more pain means more suffocation.....

i must b strong 2 go on...u 2 mama..dun worry...am safe here...2 have u guys ard has made me breath again...n i will keep breathing...till then....we'll meet again...
* LuV FRM ME 2 MA FAMILY*

PaRtY,pAsSIoN,pIcNiC=FuN+SiCk

2005-06-25T20:07:00.000+03:00

dis month i had lots of party n gatherin'...LiFe is so hectic n i decided 2 end it..as if like slackin' at home n watch tv..am actually gettin' sick of goin' out n i went 2 all those parties jsy coz of ma fwen's b'day..n sum of 'em r leavin'..u sEe!!!shamin is actually a very loyalty fwen!!plus caring..plus sweet ..n kind..hehehhe,ok ok i noe wut u guys thinkin'..ReLaX..kiddin' k..hehhehe..
anyway back on track..last nite celebrated sujung's b'day,nice n innocent sweet gurl..i love her.........hey!am not lesbian ok!love as if fwen's love!
i jst came back frm phy's picnic..so nice..so calm by da lake...thames sent me home,n sorry thames,i didn go 2 ur party 2nite,am TOO tired..i'll buy u present yea ltr...
i have nuthin' in my mind except thinkin' n countin' da days ..ma amily cumin' ere nxt week!!!my fwen was like"ur parent cumin'?,huh,must b tough" or "hahahahahah,u can't go out"WTH IS WRONG WIF U PPL!!!i want 'em ere!miss 'em so much!n yea..parent ere means more shopping!!!can't wait!!!not 4 da shoppin' la of cos..4 'em 2 cum ere..aiyaa...am a nice doughther u noe...hehehhe....
oh yea...della..sorry yea,gue ngak mau pergi ke metro sama loe,capek banget nih..janji gue akan ketemu loe 2mrw...u going back 2 indo dis monday rite??iya udah deh..daaaaaaa
so??how's mua indo?not bad uh?of cos!hehhehehe..ok ppl..arios!!!!

LiFe Is JuSt.........................

2005-06-22T14:05:00.000+03:00

last nite watched mr.&mrs smith wif my housemates....it was cool...i saw hIm n i think he saw me but he do nuthing....ignored..bought sum snacks,turned n he was standing exactly behind me...pretending am invisible..said hye wif a painful heart n walked away..........i dun understand wtf happened but can't b bother 2 waste my precious time thinkin' bout it...i mean hello!!!i am a very busy women ok!!hehehhehe...anyway,am counting da days waiting 4 ma family 2 cum ere ...1,2,3,4,5.......GOSH!!!!9 DAYS MORE!!huhuhuhuhu,MiSs 'em like hell man!

sigh...everyday i learned sumthin' new,sumthin' diff....sumthin' which made me realised dat life is just.............sigh......ok fine!not everyday,only on certain day laa...but still knowledge is precious!!!"My precious,hehehheh"who dunno wut am talking bout den jst shut up n keep reading!!=ptoday one of my college last year student died,hung himself,n he's one of da most bright stud ever..moral of da story>dun study 2 hard..i guess...hope he rest in peace...n guys outhere,if u feeling like killing urself..just remember there's always 2mrw..............

HaPPy BiRtHdAy DeAR mAmA..

2005-06-19T13:25:00.000+03:00

dear mama,
you don't know how much u mean 2 me,
words cant ever describe my luv 2 u are infinity,
and its so meaningfull coz da love is an eternity..

cold at nite alone in darkness,
i can still c da brightness..
not wif open eyes but by closing ma eyes..
shall i c ur face shining like da sun among da skies..

far away frm u am falling apart,
seeing ur pic wif broken heart,
cannot feel cannot touch,
only ur voice can cure my heart...

walking alone by ma own,
without u coming along,
always so hard for me to face..
but by holding u in my heart,
i know am always safe...

u was born with sumthing,
which means everything,
our family was created n so r we..
n one day da bond nearly break,
wihch i never wanna see,
but dats when u tied it up,
and try 2 stand up..
so much things u have done,
n so many things u've been thru..
open ur eyes n u shall see
the reasons y we luv u....

~luv u mama,semoga panjang umur,happy b'day~
luv,
shamin,ur doughter

MiSs My MaMa~

2005-06-16T08:38:00.000+03:00

2day was not bad,i laughed a LoT!!!wif ma stupid jokes n stuff..dunno y am such in a gud mood,hehhhehehe,i've been eating lots in skool..of cos coz its winter!!!u tense 2 feel hungry like every sec!

dis sat is wham's,joe's n da most important is my MaMa'S B'DaY...da worst part is am gonna b there wif ma mama...='(..sniff sniff..I miss mama...N papa..n shafiq..n abg..n opah..n..ok fine!i miss my whole family there!but da best part is they'r cumin' ere!2 perth on 2nd july!!!!can't wait!!am gonna bring 'em jalan2 n i got 2 spend time wif 'em!!just Me N mY BeLOvEd FaMiLy!!!

its like a tradition in our family dat everytime its anybody's b'day in da family,am gonna created poems 4'em...n i've jst finished a poem 4 ma mama..n am still wondring how 2 deliver it 2 her????by hp?hmmm...2 long...post it????nah,its gonna take 4ever 2 arrive...thru ma bro?nope!can't b trusted!mayb i shud call her n read it 4 her...shud i???perhaps......

It's WiNtEr!!!!!

2005-06-14T08:37:00.000+03:00

DAMN COLD!!!!am like freezin' 2 death everytime walkin' home..n dis morning..gosh!in skool i can't resist da hot warm fries.so yeah,bought it,ate it,finished it!
last sat was hell nItE!went 2 metro n da dj was suck!!wasted ma 15 dollar!!but its worth it aftr chris saw me n smile back 2 me*wink*,damn hot!hehehe,lepak there 4 an 2 hours n went 2 another place..dey played nice techno,built ma mood up but f**k most ppl pop!ppl,drug kills ok,n it hell dangerous,can kill ur brain cells n u can actually DIE!so plz ppl,do not try drug at home!or anywhere..heheh,well,da guy i like which like sum1 else came,n nxt week is his bday..am wondering wether i really luv him or its jst a temporary game???if its a game i quit!tired of playing n being HuRt..yup,dats da truth..4 da 1st time shamin is actually being hurt by a GUy..u noe wut?F**K WUT I SAID IT DON'T MEAN 2 U NOW,F**K ALL THOSE KISSES,IT DIDN'T MEAN ANYTHING',f**k u u oh!i dun want u BACK!(duun ask,ma own version,lol)n ma princess fiza,dun worry babe,he'll cum 2 u..jst sit back ,relax,n enjoy day game..hehhehe,luv ya!

hALe StoRm,CoLd!

2005-06-08T20:51:00.000+03:00

i woke up late dis morning n in last nite news said dat there was hale storm dis morning..n i knew wut 2 expect..COLD!FREEZING!auntie anne sent me 2 skool..thank GOD!if not i'll freeze 2 death waitin' 4 da bus!n da bus always late!n if am late,they'll cum early!shit!when i reached college,its like we had a snow last nite!da hales was everywhere..n its a lot!i was like cool,perth having snow..hahahhahaha,not really cool actually as my fwens was walkin' 2 da skool n they were like damn dat ice rain!it hurtin' me like shit!hahahhha,n i goes ..oh my auntie sent me..so..i was like ejoying da view n da rainbows..yup..not one.but 2 rainbows!!hell nice!
damn it!gtg..class gonna start like..NOW!!!OK..LATER..BUBYE..]
P/S:MISS FIZA!MUACKS!

Me , Him and Her

2005-06-07T09:00:00.000+03:00

this weekend was hell of fun!i finally had fun wif ma cousin,julie n dat was in perth!we had lots of fun n crazzeee drivin' in perth!spending time wif her remind me of hern a.k.a ndang..lol,dats rite gurl..our crazee moment..julie went back dis morning..n dat jst it....YEAH RITE!!hahahah,dats not all,i went out wif della ,tomoe,gip..metro,kebab,drivin' alex's car!wut a nite!loud r&b music is our fav!can't live w/o it!rite dell?BANANA!B AN AN AS!KISS MA SHIT KISS MA SHIT!our new fav song!gwen is one funky singer!like her style!
dis morning went 2 apple farm..it was hell beautiful !da only slack was da heavy rain!oh fuck it!we ignored da thunders n picked all da apples frm da trees!yup!fresh n ready 2 eat!sweet!n guess wut..am getting a cold!shit!sigh..2mrw back 2 classes...malas nye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ThE sTaRs InSiDe Me..

2005-05-31T10:32:00.000+03:00

jst came back frm subiacco,4 dner,or wuteva dat place is called...went der wif della n joe...den we watched muvie @ freo..amitiville horror again!!hehehee,its not like am obssesed wif da muvie or anythng,della n joe haven't seen it ..so,i thought,yeah y not!hehehhee,joe is really nice,i mean yea i met nice guys b4,but he's diff,even thou he's rich n everything ,he still humble..down 2 earth..dats wut i really like bout him..
everything runs smoothly..=)
anyway,shamin miss fiza 2!!!!heheheh,babe,u said kak zayana took like 30 pics of her...n most of da pic in da camera full of hers..hmmmm..wait a minute..dat sound familiar..hmmm....let me think...YOU LA!!!!heheheheh...u guys were born 2 b vain!!hehehhee,peace out!

2005-05-29T18:34:00.000+03:00

dats not ma room!

I LoVe Ma BrOthEr!!

2005-05-29T08:01:00.000+03:00

thanxs abg 4 da mp3!!!!i luv u so much n i noe u luv me 2!!hehehehe!!ur da best brother!
can't wait 4 ma cousin 2 cum ere !!!!she'll bring ma mp3!!!den we both can go shoping!!!!
nxt week will be blast!there'll b performance frm dj frm melbourne,nadia's b'day party,aftr exam party,shooping wif julie,going 2 da beach!!!!so much 2 catch up in so lil time!!!heheheh!u hear dat fiza!my life full of fun 2 u noe!!heheheh,bt i still wish we cud party 2gether babe!i miss u!waaaaaa!!!!ok,am off..got bbq...yummy!!!!

StiLL sEaRcHiNg...

2005-05-27T18:22:00.000+03:00

jst came back frm hoyts..me ,fiona,rachel n steph watched wedding date..jst 2 release tension aftr exam..da story is so sweet..of cos its like other typical luv story which ave da "happy ending" where da hero will always b 2gther wif da heroin..but still..sigh..it makes me dreamin' bout my prince charmin..dat'll b da moment when he i see him nt only ousite bt inside him,,thru his eyes..sigh..but of cos its all fantasy..2 wait 4 a moment like dat its like waiting 4 snow in the desert....dats the reality..
english exam ..damn..my hand was bout 2 break in2 pieces when i finished writtin' da last essay!no time!i dun even have time 2 day dream or think bout other things other den english!(i noe its englisg,sum of u must say wut da hell..its english,easy..rite?)it's nt when u ave 2 finish whole 4 essays in less than 3 hours!coz of dat bloody sound system!i cudn even hear da audio exam clearly even i sat in front!hmm i wonder how were da ppl who sits @ da back..anyway,hope everything will b fine..can't wait 4 da exam 2 b over!n fiza,its my TuRn ti party!!!!!

MsN

2005-05-25T13:15:00.000+03:00

hye guys!!i jst wanna inform dat i can't use my msn messenger nemore..nt till i download da new 1..yeah u guys must b wonderin y i can jst download it rite?well,i ave prob wif dat internate xplorer thingy n window xp..so it might take a while...but 4 those who ave yahoo messenger plz add me realgurl2002@yahoo.com..
2day i went 2 library n study math..y?coz 2mrw i got exam!if nt i'll b slackin' n watchin' tv @ HOME...sigh...am so tired...so..am off...daa

LiFe!

2005-05-24T05:49:00.000+03:00

happy b'day nadia!!!!!!hope u njoy ur 18th b'day n may ALLAH bless u!!!luv u babe!

sigh,on thursday till monday got exam!am nt really streessss ,jst bit worrry...my new hse is quite cool,i like it!ryana,kak peanut n kak yana treated me really well,n auntie ramlah take care of me jst like her own kid..which make me thinkin' bout mama..miss her so much...

ok drop it b4 tears cumin' out frm my eyes!fiza!hate u!ur life seems 2 b so much FuN!go passion la,party la..wut la..lol!well,am happy 4 u gurL!i ave plenty of plans aftr da exam..my dear cousin cumin'.julie!den go 2 church(nt church churh)get wut i meant?nver mine!dj frm melbourne cumin ere n he's gonnna perform in church,den da nxt day going 2 metro wif my babe,della!planin' 2 go 2 da beach but den still thinkin bout it..hmmmm..ok!done wif my thinkin'!i will go!cute guys waitin 4 me!!!hehehehe!oh yea..da guy i had crush on..well,he likes another gurl.........so?wut dat ave 2 do wif me?u think am gonna feel down?u think am gonna be frustrated?no way man!shamin didn think bout guys!guys thinkin' bout shamin!hehheheh!ok,am being "over" ere!enuf talkin',going 2 nadia's hse,dner!da..

MoViNg OuT...

2005-05-21T10:16:00.000+03:00

HELLO PPL!!!!!!i've passed up my history assigment!!!finally!!!yay!!!no more thinkin' bout history!!no more brain burstin' out frm my head!!yay!!dun b 2 excited shamin,ur exam cumin' up nxt week!damn!sigh...well,guess its 2 early 2 b happy..=<..its ok..study hard den ave fun!!HEHEHEHEHEH!<(tanduk keluar)

i jst finished packin'..well,nt really actually,aven't pack few stuff..damn..i dunno dat my stuff is a LOT!so many things in my tiny room..i actually took few hours 2 pack all of it!oh yeah,am moving out frm my homestay n muvin' 2 another hse as my homestay going back 2 malaysia...guess malaysia is da best huh,of cos!perth is like an isolated country n MY LiFe is in K.L man..nt here..but hell,i choose 2 live ere 4 da sake of my dream!2 achieve it i'll sacrifise anyhing i cud!!!ya!shamin boleh!malaysia boleh!lol!wut?i am patriotic person ok!i ave the nationalist spirit inside me!!lol!i think i shud b in da army rather den stduyin' ere!

i am so sleepy rite nw...oh shit!its 12.15pm!I FORGOT 2 WISH MY BRO HAPPY BIRTHDAY!OK,HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABANG!I LUV U SO MUCH N I'LL BUY UR PRESENT ERE OK,N PASS IT 2 JULIE,2 GIF IT 2 U!MAY ALLAH BLESS U AND MAY UR LIFE SHOWER BY HIS RAHMAT..AMIN..MISS U SO MUCH!MUACKS!!

MoViNg OuT...

2005-05-20T19:00:00.000+03:00

HiStOrY

2005-05-18T10:30:00.000+03:00

aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........am so stress rite now...exam cumin' up nxt week,history assignment pass up by d end of this week n tons of math h/w...relax..dats wut my mom said...RELAX???how can i b relax when all of this shit is in my head!my brain feel like bursting out!i need 2 chill 4 a sec..hmmpph..let me c..dis sat seems jst nice 2 chill..well,plan 2 play snooker wif steph n jess..den go 2 da city library 2 do some revision..even i got revision questions 4 history ,i didn even understand a word it sayin' man,sigh..waitin' 4 nick 2 answer all those questions*smile*thanx nick!oh yea,dis sunday am gonna move 2 auntie ramlah's hse...man!am so lazy 2 pack all my stuff!dun even bother 2 do it..mayb later..on friday nite..n tika,u said u wanna help me rite?thanx tika!gosh!i jst realized my life always rely on others!nick(my history guideline),tika(help me wif stuff),jess(help me in lots of stuff),fiza(my tourist guide)n my family..thanx guys!4 making my life perfect!muacks!
oh shit!its alreasy 12.30pm!i ave 2 go 2 bed!or else i'll b waking up late like dis morning!but its rainin' rite nw..n according 2 da news,there will b a thunder storm 2nite..rain rain..dun go away..bring da thunder bring da storm,so classes will cancel,and i can stay home...(i noe,its a pathetic song,but its my sOnG!SO dUn EvEN bOtHeR 2 SiNg WiF Me If U tHiNk It's sUcK)well,it is quite pathetic izizn it?ok ppl!miss me!bubye!

lalalalalallalaa....

2005-05-12T23:15:00.000+03:00

Am BoReD!LIKE really really bored...like bored 2 death!am in a skool hallway n i ave no idea y da college put computers here...i mean my college is like really big n out of all places they put it in the hallway....i guys they have excessive computers n they dunno wherelse 2 put 'em.seriously..dis college have lots lots of computers...n every lecturer r given labtops.i mean how cool is dat?ok enough talkin' bout computers,i didn even noe y i even bother..
oh yeah,i miss fiza n da things we've done..she's sweet carin' n stuff...oh hell,stop wif all da craps shamin,straight 2 da point..babe,make sure u think really deeply,like deep deep b4 u go back 2 ..."u noe who"...i mean its nt like u gonna marry him or sumthin'..do u?well am ere n i support every decision u made(xcept if u thinkin' bout killin him')i mean seriously babe,am worry bout u..frm da pinkish nice sweet little pricesss 2 Da GoThIc blackish PrInCeSs?wassup wif dat?evanascence?since when?out of all dis years u never notice her n now all of sudden ur her big fan..i mean evanascence is my thing nt urs..n our things r sheila on7,cokelat,ashlee simpson..Seriouly ppl,if u dun believe me go 2 her blog n c 4 ur self..www.princessdy.blogspot.com....ok time 4 lunch!!!!!!!!!!!!daaaaaa

complicated..

2005-05-09T10:55:00.000+03:00

chill out wut u yellin' 4,lay back its all been done b4,n if u cud only let it b,u will c..i like u da way u r,when we'r drivin in ur car,n ur talkin' 2 me 1 on 1 ,n u bcum,sumbody else frm every1 else,u watchin' ur back like ue can't relax,u tryin' 2 b cool,but look like a fool 2 me!!tell me..y da hell u made things so complicated...c da way ur acting like sumbody else n get me frustrated..lalalalla..mua fav song..last sat went 2 karoeke again wif jess,della n her fwens...it was so much fun!but of cos not all story ended up wif happy endin'..2day mr.mackay,my fav tcher told ud he got cancer..lat us take a moment n pray..hopin' hell b fine soon..insya'allh..May GOD bless u..amin..

i called lissa n she was cryin,tot dat i didn gif a shit bout her..coz i didn call her b4 leavin'...gurl ..u still my dear sister n i luv u 4 being one ok..i will never 4get all of my fwens....u guys will always remain in my heart....

2mrw started 2 go 2 library..2 do sum revision...exam is jst ard da corner n my brain is jst about 2 burst..n i aven't start anyhin' yet!imagine if i did!it will b xploded in2 tiny little pisces!lol!ok b4 am talkin more crap am gonna off dis computer n go 2 bed..daaaa...

HaPpY MoThEr's DaY mama....

2005-05-08T01:54:00.000+03:00

All this years u've been through,
growing me was'nt an easy job to do,
i touched the sky by reaching your hand,
and thats da moment i learned to stand,
thousands flowers could never repay,
things that u've done for me to stay,
to stay alive to open my eyes,
to see the world and see ur smiles..
the flowers will die and so do i,
but the luv in me will never say goodbye..
you are my mama and nothing cud replace,
becouse your the one that i praise....

luv,
-ur daugther,shamin-
I MiSs U MaMa,hOpE u lIkE dA fLoWeRs ThaT i SeNt 2 U....

izit jst me or she is annoyin'!

2005-05-07T11:10:00.000+03:00

hello people!its been few days i didn post any blog....i've been bit bz as exam is jst ard da corner...a lot more stress wif da pressure of meetin' sum1 everyday which luv 2 insult u..n thinkin' she's WAY better den u...it's gettin' really annoyin' ...n trust me,my patience was jst bout 2 blow up jst nw..but i resist..creatin' problem is jst not my thing...i jst wanna say sumthin' 2 dis gurl,IF U THINK AM REALLY STUPID,GUESS MY ACHIEVEMNT AS BEST STUDENT IN CERTAIN SUBJECT IN EVERY SCHOOL I'VE ENTERED PROVED DAT UR WRONG.jst coz am blur sumtimes n being lazy 2 study..u assumed dat i am a worthless person do ya?didn cross my mind 2 show off or wutever..i jst wanna let u THINK n use ur brain b4 lettin' out sum words out of ur bloody mouth!THINK about how ppl feels..oh..wait a minute,dat is if u ave a brain 2 think..coz all dis time i didn c u thinkin' bout our feelin',or shud i say care..oh!i 4got,u dun ave a heart 2,do ya?huh!its nt dat i dun want 2 talk straight 2 ur face!i can!its jst i ave a heart,n i still care bout u as a fwen..n hurtin' ur feelin' wud b da worst thing 2 do in a friendship..
as am avin' dis pain indide me,causin' by u..it makes me think bout my best friend..fiza..n dats when i realised..u can get new friends..but it will never ever b da same again.... I mIsS aLl Of My FwEnS...mY fAmIlY...mY lIfE....

2005-05-05T17:25:00.000+03:00

MiSs OuR cRaZiNeSS

fuck off frm her life..

2005-05-03T06:25:00.000+03:00

jst talked 2 my princess..fiza...she told me bout daniel her bf..again,daniel complaint 2 charm bout fiza..i mean dude,if u ave a prob wif my best fwen,tell her straight 2 her face,wuts ur problem man?izit by makin' her cryin' n hurtin' her feelin' will make u feel better?but i guess u dosen't gif a shit do ya?
seriously daniel..4 nw....jst fuck off frm her life...
n babe..i dun want u 2 cry over n over again..u ave a great life!njoy it while u can n dun let dis shit blockin' ur way..n am always gonna here 4 u alrite..whenever u need me..am ere..
sigh...test!test!test!A LOT of test cumin' up dis week!so,lots of work 2 do!damn lazy..2 even look @ da book!

12 am...

2005-05-01T10:00:00.000+03:00

its 12am rite nw..n i jst finished studyin' econs...examanation is in 2 weeks time..i hope i can cover all subjects rite on time..yesterday was really fun,celebrated della's b'day @ metro,went 4 karoeke(i dunno dat i cud sing,well mayb nt like pro but hell)~u took my heart away..when my whole world was grey..u gave me everythin',a lil bit more~heheheh,am nt really sure d exact lyric..i like dat song!den..drink bubble tea..della...i already assume her as my sister...n gurl,if ur readin' dis think bout wut i said 2 u dis mornin'...aarrrggghh..am damn tired..slept @ 6am n woke up @ 8.30AM..n guess wut,i slept again @ 2pm.lol,hey,i was really tired ok!dun blame me..n jess am sorry we ave 2 cancel our study group(u noe y),n sumore dis mad women..she knew i was exhausted n yet asked me out 2 freo,crazy!sigh..ok,am off 2 bed(actually am nt,have 2 do couple os things 1st)later..daaa..

just us...

2005-04-29T18:40:00.000+03:00

hye ppl!i was jst bout 2 go 2 bed but i cudn resist..lol..i ave 2 writte sumtihn in my blog!well,2day me n jess went n watched muvie @ southland..amttyville..it was scary..but not scary enough 2 make me scream,well,jess did!btw,da scariest part was dat theres only 2 of us watching dat muvie!!!!its unbelievable!there was nobody there except us!lol!jess got really freaked out!spending friday nite watching muvie was fun..n 2mrw..er gonna celebrate della's b'day @ northbridge..sweet...

happy birthday..

2005-04-29T05:45:00.000+03:00

HaPpY BiRtHdAy 2 u,HaPpY BiRtHdAy 2 u..
HaPpY BiRtHdAy 2 DELLA..
hAppy BiRtHdAy 2 u...

its della's b'day 2day..my indo fwen..i noe how she feels..celebrating ur b'day w/o ur family is jst da worst thing ever..(but i guess sumthing cud jst b more worst when dat sum1,u noe who della,4got ur b'day,even he's besides u)i knew it coz i've been thru da same thing..on my b'day,27th feb,celebrated my b'day w/o my beloved family was jst sucks!sigh..but i was lucky..my close fwens..jess,anne n joe was with me n they made me happy on dat day..jst wut i need n i cudn't ask 4 more..thanks to them...

anyway,in history class 2day i pass up my assignment report..n guess wut?mt teacher rejected it!uhuhuhuhu!i ave 2 do it all over again..he said it was 2 brief..wutever..dis month i ave A LOT to catch up..but even so..2mrw am going 2 watch muvie wif jess @ southland!lol!ok guys..c ya later..arios!!

2005-04-28T17:03:00.000+03:00

me n fiza..

ppl,jst give ur comments..

2005-04-28T15:22:00.000+03:00

hey guys,u can jst post ur comments by click @ comments,i havent figure out how 2 show it on da page yet...hmm..any1 can help me wif dat???

2005-04-28T15:03:00.000+03:00

my b'day dner...

friends forever...

2005-04-28T08:30:00.000+03:00

helllo guys!
well,2day is a bit cold..n in all classes 2day,sum jerks went n turned on the air-con!n am sitting there freezin' 2 death!lucky i survived!lol,well,i was jst talking 2 my best cutest fwen of mine..fiza..a.k.a,princess..we miss the time when we were 2gether,back in k.l..the sweet n the sad memories dat we had..da crazee things dat we've done..shud i mention sum of them???hahahaa,i dun think so or fiza will kick my ass!i miss those time...babe,i will never 4get u n we'll always remain as best fwen 4ever...n ever..no matter wut...
when i turned around,u'll always b there,
sitting besides me,and gave a stare..
then we smiled and sometimes laughed,
n shared the momments where no one care..
coz its only us who understand..
the sweetness n pain that we've been through..

we may b apart,but we'll never forget,
da memories of us..dat we have shared..
shall it reamain in my heart,
till GOD break us apart,
and shall we meet in heaven,
far away from hell,
as we asked the GOD,
to keep us 2gether..
and the sweetness of memories shall remain 4ever....
-from shamin 2 my princess-

2005-04-27T17:54:00.000+03:00

fizady

2005-04-27T17:41:00.000+03:00

me and my princess

my first blog..

2005-04-27T08:31:00.000+03:00

hye people..
wassup,well,dis is da first time am creating my blog..so it might be boring..or fun!heheheh..depends on my mood...sigh..2day is ok..da 1st day of skool after a long holiday..not much of new faces..as i expexted..skool is just meant to be boring..n rite now i didn even have the mood to study..even i know i have to..sigh..something is wrong..something is missing frm me..wut am i kiddin'!lots of things are missing!AM ALONE!sigh..well,its my fault,am the one who choose to study here..in perth..but i know wuts best for me n i hope n i made the right choice..but life w/o family is jst pain in the ass!really miss 'em a lot..especially my niece..diana......alrite..am not gonna cry on my first blog!hahaaha..alrite ppl,hope u gonna enjoy my blog ..gud day mate!

2005-04-26T18:18:00.000+03:00

just us..

2005-04-26T18:13:00.000+03:00

My LiFe